Dazed But Not Down

Cause it's been so hard to tell what's been going on recently 

          Well, it's definitely been a while since I last blogged in this one. Just lazy old me can't ever find the effort to come back to it every once in a while. 

          Right now I should probably be studying huge words for the SAT or reading that book that Mr. Scott assigned me. But once again, I'm finding something else to do instead. 

          Lately, despite more and more activities and things coming across my way, whether that be playing the piano, school stuff, tree-planting, student government starting, Christian Club starting, etc, I'm starting to really just not make a big deal out of it. 

          The reason, unlike most of what I've been doing before, I'm relying on others to help me now.

          During fellowship on Saturday, we talked about what makes a good leader. And that leader has three primary traits, to not run away from danger, to trust that God is going to help you, and to allow other people to assist in whatever you want to do. 

          What I've really struggled in was letting other people do my work. It sounds pretty crazy but I've never liked working in teams that much. The reason, I didn't care about how well we were going to do whatever we did, I cared more about my own glory. I didn't want to share the recognition and attention that would come after whatever was done. 

          As I'm slowly maturing, I'm starting to care less about myself and more about having the best possible scenario. 

          With that being said, the more work that's being taken in also brings in an equal amount of stress. But, in the midst of all this, I'm not complaining. All of which I do is pretty much just plain old business and you can never complain about that. I just have to get it done. Giving up is simply not an option.